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We left for the city last Sunday with plans of making the big trip for Hudson’s post op head scan last a total of 2 days away from the farm. Due to a series of unfortunate events at the passport office, we were held up in the city until today and I cannot tell you how much I hate having lost these last 3 days at home.  Hudson’s head shape before/after
My friends..it has taken me 4 years to finally feel this kind of comfort but it’s official: the farm is now truly my home. The city no longer beckons me. We have put down roots and I have let mine dig deep on our farm. It’s the home I brought my little baby boy back to. The “four walls” of our farmhouse have housed me in ways unimaginable. They have sheltered me, comforted me, watched me laugh and cry and never once crumbled when my own body wanted to. They have witnessed numerous streams of morning light with endless cups of coffee and 13 months of bedtime routines. Home is a beautiful thing, isn’t it?
As I write this out we are currently enroute back to our farm. We left the city in a blanket of cold fog which has given way to the warmth of sunshine on my face and endless open space. As the concrete gives way to open fields I feel lighter, happier and inspired. My son is sleeping quietly behind me, my husband is quietly whistling along to his 60’s on 6 channel and I am taking in this moment of pure bliss. No worries..no concerns..just heading back to home sweet home…
you guys!!! It’s mornings like this one that happen mid-winter but have me dreaming of Spring. The sun is shining without a cloud in sight, the birds are chirping like crazy and the temperature is hovering above zero. I found myself putting Hudson down for his morning nap then grabbing my camera and heading outside to let the chickens out for the day and go exploring with my boys. I feel so much better about life in general when I am outside. The fresh air and quiet of living in the country feed me in ways I’d never imagined before. This morning was so bright and cheery that I just had to capture it..hope you enjoy a glimpse of my exploration on the farm..
The flowers have long been pulled, the frost is now thick on the ground and winter has made itself comfortable in our neck of the woods. So naturally, my thoughts turn back to Summer! While I absolutely adore all of our seasons, Summer holds a special place in my heart because I get to do what I love.. grow things/play in the dirt and be surrounded by beauty in nature. I am a gardener at heart and honestly? I come by it quite naturally.. This past Summer I spent a few afternoons in one of my favourite spots: my aunty’s cottage garden in the city. To me, there is really no better way to spend a sunny afternoon then on her patio under the umbrella, sipping water flavoured with homegrown herbs & fruit and taking in the beautiful oasis she has created for herself these past few years.  My aunt has always been a garden inspiration to me..well, actually, she has always been an inspiration to me..period! She is so full of life and laughter and wise beyond her years. She has always felt like the centre to our family and someone I have looked up to my entire life. So when I popped in this past Summer with my mom and Hudson, you know I had to quickly snap up her garden!! These photos don’t even do it justice, I’m afraid. But, nevertheless..please enjoy this little tour of my aunt’s cottage garden in the city..  Thank you guys for stopping by today!! xo, As I write todays’ post, I am stretched out on my mothers couch, Adam stretched out on the other and Mr Hudson is fast asleep in his crib at grandmas. I can hardly believe it but yes, we were released early this morning from the hospital! I can’t quite wrap my head around all of this just yet..it seems a blur to me to have gotten from Wednesdays heartache of giving him up for his surgery to now having him sleeping soundly at my moms. Truly, truly grateful. Last night Hudson went down at 8:30 and was given a little Tylenol at 10:30 then slept thru the night happily and without any other medication. You guys..that’s just 2 days post cranial surgery and my superhero was sleeping like a champ!! He woke up around 6 am, smiling and happily playing with us. His eyes were slowly opening back up and although he is still so swollen, he looks amazing! After being looked at by the neuro team and the discharge team of nurses, we were given the okay to head on home! I can’t tell you how fast that room was picked up and cleaned out! We were ecstatic to say the least!! We hadn’t even left Calgary before the little man fell fast asleep in his car seat. When he was awake though he was babbling and giggling and it made my heart skip a beat to hear those noises again. My little man, although he’d been through so much, didn’t show it [minus the incredible incision along his hairline.] To be honest, what the surgeons did was absolutely amazing and I know that once the swelling goes down, the change will be remarkable. Yet, I do catch myself staring at him often. His personality is the same, his mannerisms are the same..yet, when I look at him? I don’t see my baby. I don’t see the little boy I gave birth to. And that breaks this mommy’s heart. Yes his blue eyes are coming back to me but his face is wide and I don’t know..right now I miss his old head..even though I know it needed to be fixed, to me he was perfect just the way he was. But I know everything will be fine once the swelling goes down in a few weeks. And all will be as it should! As for us, we’re laying low for a day or two at my moms before venturing off on the road again to home. We’ll stick close to a hospital here for a couple of days but then I am so excited to get him home and start the process of recovery! And a little note to each and every one of you..my heartfelt gratitude cannot be put into words for how your support has comforted us this past week. We have read each and every message online and are blown away by the community of support we have from friends and family near and far. You helped us get through this week and words will never express how grateful I am. Thank you, thank you, thank you!! Once I get home, I will post some photos of this last week up here on the blog as we progressed from before surgery up to his post op updates!! Check back soon and I hope you all have a wonderful weekend Xo |