Time to be honest..

It was a few months ago, while out for a 2 mile walk, that I thought to myself ” I need a challenge like this to walk 2 miles every day for the summer” .. do you remember that challenge?! Yeah, I don’t either. Failed at that one, big time. Don’t get me wrong, I do a lot of walking in my days..walk to the chicken coop, walk around our yard, down to the shop to visit Adam (we have about a 7 acre yard so I walk a pretty decent amount) but thats not the point. Nope. My goal was to walk an additional 2 miles every day, specifically for exercise..and I haven’t held up my end of the bargain, not even close. I’d like to blame it on the garter snake I came across in April/May that has forced me to rarely walk down there again, but thats not true. Yes, I avoided it for quite some time but I do have other roads to walk down and I also do have a treadmill…

So, 304 in 152 is pretty much dead in the water..done. And I’m okay with that. I’m not built to hold on to these kinds of things and fuss about it. Instead, I just move on. I have never been one of those girls that could eat anything and get away with it. I’ve always had to be mindful of how much I ate or else it would creep up on me without much notice. But, since I met Adam I was blissfully unaware that I would try and match him, plate for plate of whatever he ate. He’s a farmer with a big appetite folks and let be the first to tell you that in the last two years, I have officially gained 31 lbs…gulp, there it is. No, I didn’t need to announce it to the world but I’ve got to be honest with myself, its the only way I’ll deal with it. My annual physical was 2 weeks ago and, although I knew the number wasn’t going to be pretty, I was still shocked when I stepped on the scale and she read that number out. Embarrassed and humiliated, I sat there in disbelief that someone else was now in on my secret..I’d let myself go. It ain’t pretty and its a really hard journey, but I’m working on it. Every day I force myself up on our treadmill, I walk at least half an hour, I’ve cut back on my portions, I’ve cut back on my soda intake and increased my water intake ten fold…and I feel good. I’m lucky if I’ve lost 2 lbs yet, but I’m working on it. I have set a goal of 20 lbs by October and if I meet it, I’ll be ecstatic. If I beat it? Well, even better!

So if, like me, you’ve found yourself a little heavier, a little rounder and a little depressed about it..please know you are most definitely not alone. We all go through it, we all struggle with it. Its best to be honest with yourself and work from there, and that is exactly what I am trying to do. Hopefully I can keep on track with my goal and when/if I do, I’ll be sure to keep you in the loop on here. Some days I might even come on here just to celebrate a one pound loss, and I hope you will celebrate along side me!! Have a great Monday everyone! We are off to the lake this week for a much needed break before Harvest but I have some posts scheduled and I will be back next week!

love,
 dawn